Full-Blown Suffering: My Struggle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden sensation sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, like lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with intense pain around one eye that lasts up to three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe pain focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to plan life around erratic pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery which delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, scientists released the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are handled with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Amy Crawford
Amy Crawford

Elara Vance is a digital strategist with over a decade of experience in tech journalism and online content creation.